rhymes wit....

....something that rhymes with "orange"

"door hinge"

finally found where i got my away.....

Everyone daydreams. But what’s in a daydream? It’s a little bit of care-free imagination mixed with real life experiences- and topped off with a pinch of idealism. Sometimes the most interesting and meaningful moments we have are the everyday happenings that are easily forgettable. In the end, these moments are the true treasures that we cherish.

good night

nighty night z.z

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dont know what to write tonight...
i love you

I’ve been thinking about you
And how we used to be then
Back when we didn’t have to live we could start again
There’s nothing left to say
Don’t waste another day
..........................................................
But me and you were meant to be together
So let me in give me another chance
To really be your man
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do

time to...

the power of wishes..donno if it works or not but its always good to be a little optimisitc...
y3(1:11:01 PM): WISSSSHHH
y3(2:22:19 PM): WISH
y3(3:33:33 PM): WISH!!!
y3(4:44:07 PM): WISH
y3(5:55:05 PM): WISH!!!
y3(6:06:53 PM): wish!?!
y3(7:07:11 PM): WISH !!!!!!!
y3(8:08:08 PM): WISH !!!!!!!!
y3(9:09:09 PM): ☼WISH☼!!!!
y3(10:10:04 PM): WISH☺!(\(*o*)/)
y3(11:11:11 PM): WISH 11:11
y3(12:12:12 AM): WISH!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont know if youll like actually pay attention to it but yeah...make a wish
"I was just wondering about you, wondering if you ever think about me"
...i guess im thinking about that a lot these days...
From the dimples to the smile,
From your heart all the way to mine.
We fit, we match, we go, I think you oughta know,
Think you oughta know.
You make me feel,
That everything is going right,
That I can go to sleep tonight

thinking of...

friday is another day. i wanna prove to you that i still care and that i do still love you. then theres that possibility where youll just get irritated of me doing all these things that i shouldnt be doing. today im still wishing...wishing for something. its hard to not think about you and your other options and whats happening now. its been a week and youve already moved on, its been a week and i still love you. i told myself that id stop waiting for you. i miss everything about you. your smile, laugh, hug, the random talks. i feel like i wanna cry but ive run out of tears. somedays, or everyday i just feel like shouting "i love you" and hope that you can hear it. heh i guess i am becoming you or the old you. breaking down has become part of my routine. the silence kills me, no one to talk to, and the person whom i really wish i could talk to is talking with someone else. dont get me wrong its you your life not mine. im just saying the things i wish i could say to you. i sound like a broken record repeating things over and over again. but its how i feel day to day.
Did you edit me out of your mind
'Cos in a flash you had disappeared, gone (gone)
Before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Maybe I should risk it all and state
That I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you

another night

last night was weird. i was up for you but you were up for another person idk. i guess i overreacted. felt really sleep deprived lately but no matter how much i try to sleep early i cant seem to. when i wake up in the morning i just wanna go back to sleep but the thoughts keep me from sleeping.
I know this is a feeling that i just cant fight,
you're the first and last thing on my mind
You make me wanna love
You make me wanna fall

idk...

iono i dont even know you anymore :/
not a bye or good night

who woulda thought

is this how heartache is suppose to feel like? numb-ness with the occasional heart pains, in the mood to do absolutely nothing?, lying around thinking about what if's?, thinking on how to fix it when you know its unfixable, indescribable headaches, wishing for the best when the best isnt there. sighh i fall deeper and deeper into heartache...
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say baby safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

lately ive been having dreams....

sighh i cant seem to get you off my mind even when im asleep lately. heh even in astronomy i managed to scare this black dude and ..i think mexican dude. i was dreaming of something and the next moment my whole body twitched and i kicked the black guy's chair and scared him. -.- do my dreams really bother me that much that i react physically? cant seem to get you off my mind. i guess its bothering me, sleeping late and waking up early. ive found myself forcing myself to sleep cause i woke up really early. make a wish cause its 11:11 ...but know that youll be on my mind 24 hours at a time... bits and pieces of lyrics..

wishes....

i cant keep my emotions in if my life depended on it... i wish things werent this way. i dont know what i could have done. i wish i was still in high school. like i always say i wish we were still together. i know i gotta pick myself up but i got like tons of weight on me. i know youre happier and thats all that matters. i know the things i say, you probably wont like and itll probably be on your conscience as you say. i wish giving up was easy, but its not. maybe im too optimistic for my own good, where every single positive what ifs are still possible. you said that i should prioritize my life and i did. i know you said that i should put school first, but youre still first as a person in my life. and you still are. i wish i could let go as easy. before you got angry at me because i called someone else my life a long time ago and i said that person was no longer my life. i just wanted to prove that you are my life and now i shouldnt consider you to be my life. i guess i shouldnt wish for this wish anymore...i wish you could be my life one day. i guess thats why i do so much, just too much. youre a special person. only one in the world, that what makes you unique. i guess the only thing i wish for was i wish you still love me. but i guess genie's rules still applies here too, i can't make anyone fall in love, nor you shouldnt force yourself too like someone. nothing beats unconditional. i guess thats all i can say for now...cept i love you
-terry

day off tomorrow

sighh i dont know what to do tomorrow now. a month ago i was really happy that i got a day off, which meant i could visit you at logan for a day. but now i dont think i can because i dont want it to seem like it was too much. i dont know, this isnt the best thing to say but i love you still and its hard getting over you. i wish i could visit and just hug you and do what couples do. i guess things have changed since a month ago. i dont want to worry people or go off on random rambling. today felt really long as usual without you. looking forward to your "hiya" when i got home, looking forward to a hug when i got back to UC on fridays. i really miss that. although yesterday was our talk i understand you better when it was in person reather than over aim. i guess im still looking at the "what ifs" and now i have to stand on the side living my life with you living yours. ill figure myself out too as college moves on. already planned that im getting a job next year and trying to pay for a share home with paolo and kha...we'll see what happens. iono i still want to be the reason for your happiness but like you said youre happier without me there so ill have to accept it. im still trying to get over the fact that i cant wait for you anymore, but i guess that feeling wont go away anytime soon. i wish i could tell you in person, face to face, over aim, anything to let you know that i love you and i still care about you. i guess for now i gotta give you your space to grow and live life. as for me...more days that continue to move slow. like i said those many days before to your teacher..."i just want you to be happy"

i guess theres nothing more i can do. i just hope that i can be your friend and continue to be apart of it. youll always have a place in my heart as my first love. i love you as a friend and that ill always be here for you, just dont be afraid of calling me. i wanna say at the moment ill still be waiting at the back of my heart but thats how i feel. i mean ill be more open just for now im still hurting a little. not like the other days but yeah.

i dont know

some reason i cant wait until tomorrow cause i get to see you, on the other hand the truth is going to hurt, i guess one hard thing is i dont get to see you change, know whats going on, or how youre feeling emotionally not just on the outside but deeper down too, ill never know whats going in your life anymore, i just hope that i continue to be apart of it

my only weakness is you...

i dont know what i could say, i dont know what i want anymore, i dont know is you still want to talk to me, i dont even know if you still like me.
but what i do know is that i want to be with you, i know i should keep my distance but its unbearable, i know im probably trying too hard, and i know im still in love.
theres so many things that i know and want and dont get me wrong i understand you too youve told me over and over er twice but still first time hit hard. its hard to be "just friends" theres so many things i wish i could do to show you i care. i guess theres too many things im doing right now to show you i care but like i said trying too hard. i dont know what im going to say to you tomorrow, i hope that things will be better. im sorry about yesterday i shouldnt have come. i guess i was still excited in a way because of a chance that i get to see you and talk to you, but even then it was a "just stop". i didnt want to hurt you more so i thought it was best if i just left. after that i just sat in the parking lot cause i just couldnt drive away. you were like in the mile radius and i just couldnt go. then i guess i heard something that iono wasnt the best thing probably worst thing so far, not going to say it here but yeah. apparently people have been saying its your fault and everything but dont listen to them...and to the others who could be reading this.. this isnt her fault its mine cause i didnt give her the care she deserved in the first place, eventually lead to this so stop blaming. i know that ive been talking to alot of people to try and get my actions and emotions under control, all of them helped me alot so i thank those who did. i know i should be listening to them but its hard [obviously]. and now i dont want to bother other people so im venting through blogger...yeah.. i didnt want to wake up today at nine cause you had your family thing and first thing i thought of was should i talk now or not... i honestly dont know what to say to you, i just want to try and fix this, is it possible to get things back to what they were? or am i just hoping for too much? this is probably too much and i shouldnt even be doing this. you say i should move on with my life and find my other options, i dont care if theyre better, i just want to care for you, and im willing to wait even though there is that slim chance. and youre not ready to close off yours and figure yourself out, i understand that but its really hard to accept. i know that you have alot of stress and thats one of the reasons you told me and im just adding on, so just know that i love you and until tomorrow or whenever you want to talk ill be here. i dont know what i can possibly say or do that can get us back together, but im still going to try for a chance of us.

life without you

life without you- gabe bondoc ...anyone have the song? x] i cant find any place to dl it D;

sighh

cant continue to count something that is uncertain but can continue to wait so what can i do now?...just know that i love you and ill always be here for you:]

546

546 left... yeah this is pretty much it no feelings no nothing cause theyre written down somewhere else ;]

longest day

547 days left and counting down.....so ill be waiting
i dont regret anything cept hugs i wish i gave more of those <3
ima keep this here just for memories off my aim:
Happy Eleven Months Honey<3