under the bridge...

trust :/ once its broken it takes alot of work to build it up [no duh]. feels like the bridge has crumbled and im desprately trying to rebuild it. it feels as if i cant be myself everything is being dragged down, cant even joke when its being taken seriously. how can i rebuild that bridge. idk how ima do it but i gotta do it soon. 3 months is a short amount of time. how come all the "i love you"'s sound empty even tho i put all of my emotion into each one. cant cross the river by myself, the water is moving too fast. water full of lies, disappointment, inconsiderate-ness. is the river that wide that i cant build a bridge? hrmm, come to think of it next year is gonna be a bummer...literally a bridge between us T.T anyways...the last night of grad night is gonna be all bad... its going to be our 7 months :/ on the last night and the day that we do come back its too late. gah back to our current situation...im being dragged down by your actions, words. ever since the truth has come out, it feels as if my words a hollow and im just sending you boats across the river, only to see them capsize and have their meaning wash away and only you getting the empty boat. i really need that bridge get the things back to the way we were and hopefully one day this will all be "under the bridge..."